Tag: survivors

National Child Abuse Prevention Month – Day 1

April 1, 2020

10:50 p.m.

I am a survivor of child molestation who believes in honoring the survivors of sexual every year in April. For the last three years I’ve had the honor of hosting a safe place platform named The Living as a Survivor Telesummit. The platform gave women and men the opportunity to share their stories of surviving sexual, physical and mental abuse whether it was at the hands of their parents, family or friends.

This year I’ve decided to recap of some of the survivor’s sayings mentioned during thee interviews. Please be mindful that a trigger warning has been placed on this content. I pray the journey to healing for you is as freeing as mine has been for me so far.

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Survivor Sunday Healing Tip

Hey lady,

How are you feeling? I know you are probably tired of resting so much now since it’s been about a long two weeks of quarantine due to Rona but let’s not get stagnant.. okay.

I need you to complete this task to help support your healing by staying present in the moment. Here’s it is:

When you finish the task let me know by leaving a comment under the post. I want to know how you felt from start to finish in order to explain why I chose this healing tip to share with you.

I promise to elaborate on this healing tip in detail at The Pen Letter on a later date so make sure you are signed up to receive the email notifications.

With lots of love and a big hug,

Lakell

Living Familyless

survivor's shadow

For the last few days I’ve been waking up asking God first thing “Why am I alone?” I know I left my ex-husband eight years ago because I was struggling with some hurt of my own but I never expected to be single for the rest of my life God.” Or at least that’s how it feels. Then I began to reflect on the fact that I am alone when it comes to family as well. As large as my family is I have not one cousin who I can just pick up the phone and say “let’s hang out. I’ll be over in a minute” Why is this? Not to mention I have no kids at the age of 42. Again, I ask “Why is this?” and the way my mind works these questions will stay on repeat until they are answered. Luckily all my answers showed up this evening.

As the hours passed through the day, I felt better about something really significant. With all the responsibilities of being a parent to my siblings growing up it is probably time for me to be alone in order to reset and reflect on what I want my life to look and feel like at the end of each day. So when I was invited out to catch up with a friend that was in town visiting I jumped on it. Not because I needed something to do but because I knew the energy, I would be spending with this group of individuals would be reciprocated.

So around 6:30 p.m. we met up for dinner. We talked, laughed, ate and talked some more. It was a great feeling to catch up on what this particular friend had going on since they relocated to be closer to their family. I felt at home as I spent time with them. It was at this moment I realized the feeling of being alone wasn’t due to the lack of positioned people such as a husband, cousin or a longtime high school friend. It’s due to my lack of appreciation for what I already have in my life. Family members cross my path in unexpected ways all the time. No they aren’t blood related but sometimes the best love come from the people you don’t know. The best thing about this is I know them when I feel them. The love and energy are undeniable.

So back to me feeling alone. Sometimes I just need a gently reminder that I’m never alone I am just sitting still. My life is more than a shadow.

Salute to the Savior Sunday

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for filling my heart up with possibilities for all I pray for daily.

I love the unexpected glimpse into the next chapter for me.

You show me that if I remain grateful and faithful that nothing is impossible.

And as a bonus you drop people in my life that confirm your plan for me.

Your angels are extremely obedient to you orders.

I receive all the good news.

I wait patiently for the ultimate reveal.

I Love and Honor you,Lord

In your Name,

I Pray

AMEN

Salute to the Savior Sunday

11/19/2017
10:33 am

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for waking me up this morning.

I am grateful that you saw fit for me to continue your work today, Lord.
I wake up today with a clear mind, soul and heart
which will make room for the thoughts, feelings and love you have in store for me today.

I surrender to your Will today Lord.

Thank you for choosing me to carry the light.
Although sometimes I doubt I am worthy of such an assignment
you remind me that I was called.

Lord, please cover my readers as they travel through out their day.
Bless every step and speak to their hearts right now , Oh Lord.

In your name I pray,
AMEN

A survivor’s lesson in understanding “My mouth heard you say I love”

I said I love you..
but you replied” that’s not what I said”
but I heard you
you replied” it wasn’t me
maybe it was the voices in your head”
I don’t understand why not
because that’s what you are suppose to do.
You’re my mother, my father, you’re my sister and my friend
and you are suppose to be my lover
but when I responded” I love you”
you said ” that’s not what I said”
What was the misunderstanding of what you said
was it the fact that I needed it , wanted it
or was it the fact that you showed it but really didn’t mean it.
Why did I misunderstand what you said when I clearly heard you say I love you
or did you say I hate you
It feels like a familiar translation of what I wished you would say.
I said I love you..
but you replied” that’s not what I said”

Question: How many times have you misunderstood the intentions of the word love in relationships?

Salute to the Savior Sunday

11/12/9:35 am

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for allowing me to see and live in today.  I feel the joy of this day already in my heart.  I believe you have great things in store for me.

I request out loud my silent prayers for a healthier temple while living the full-time entrepreneur life.  I am out growing my corporate job as you already know from my  moans and groans.  I am grateful for the experience of the valuable skills plus the steady paycheck.  I have grown and learned a lot.

Thank you for keeping the desires of my heart alive so I may live in them before they are fully revealed to me.  I will continue to work with a faithful heart in preparation for the next big move.

I surrender to your Will today Lord.  I accept the need to prepare for the plan you have for me with no complaints. I will stay focused, grateful and faithfully.

In you name I pray.

AMEN

My “Me” Time Friday

11/10/21:51pm

Hey Survivors,

I had a very necessary  “Me” day date with one of my favorite hairdresser this past Friday.  After working a long week of overtime I deserved every minute of this time away into myself.

Here is the result:

The best part of this day is how I felt after I made the day about me:)

With Hugs and Love,

Lakell

 

What did you do for yourself today?

 

 

How do you rate your happy?

11/09/17:24

Hey Survivors,

Have you ever really took the time to sit with your emotions?  Do you know what your happy feels like and when you are living in it the most? If your answer is no, let’s see what we can do about that right now:)

I have learned that emotions have a life as well.  They can control you negatively or positively based on the decision you make after the feeling is executed.  It’s all up to you.

For me I have started becoming more aware of how I really feel due to me active involvement in daily journaling.  Journaling is so much more than just writing.

But that’s another blog for another day 🙂

Today I would like to discuss how you rate your happy.   Do you wait for someone to let you know if your happy or do you control your own happiness? Yes, No or maybe:)

Here is a mini journaling assignment I do to remind myself to live in the moment with my emotions right now.

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Here is a sample of my journaling assignment for today:

I am happiest when my heart feels….

Excited

Protection

Nurtured

Fulfilled

Inspired

Acknowledged

Peaceful

The lesson I gained from today’s assignment is that paying attention to my heart determines how I show up in my today.

I challenge you to do yourself a favor tonight and complete this assignment.  Let me know if it was helpful for you as well.

So until next time…Remember you are alive to live!!

With Hugs and Love,

Lakell 

Pssst… Did you show up for your happy today?

Affirm + Remain Grateful

11/8/19:00pm

Hey Survivors,

Gratitude to me is collection of thank- you’s given in advance or proceeding an kind unselfish gesture.

Being grateful sets us up for a solid foundation to accept more kindness.

When we celebrate the little things by remaining grateful we will always have unlimited abundance.

Why do you remain grateful?

With Hugs and Love,

Lakell