02/18/00:23
Heavenly Father,
Thank you for waking me up this morning.
I feeling ready and rested to live in this day.
I am grateful.
I am honored to be chosen by you Lord.
Thank you for a second chance to begin again.
I will follow your lead.
I will surrender to your WILL.
I grow along the way.
In your Name I pray,
AMEN
02/11/23:54pm
Hey Survivors,
Be confident in the love you give.
It is a direct reflection of who you are to the world.
It’s a responsibility that only the strong can carry.
I will take my life and share it in your life so you can be the light of the next life you come in contact with today.
Show everything.
Transfer the apparent scarred parts so they can be seen.
This is where life is introduced to the lesson.
Be confident in the love you give.
It is a direct reflection of who YOU are to the world.
With Hugs and Love,
Lakell
What lesson have you learned from love?
Heavenly Father,
Thank you for allowing me to see another day.
Another chance at this life to live.
I want to thank you today for your love, Lord
You love me when I have a hard time loving myself.
you whisper sweet reminders to my soul that only your love is real.
When you talk to me I hear love.
When you answer me I feel love.
When you protect me your covering is love.
When you change me I see love.
Thank you for you are the light of my life, Lord
In your name
I pray
AMEN
I said I love you..
but you replied” that’s not what I said”
but I heard you
you replied” it wasn’t me
maybe it was the voices in your head”
I don’t understand why not
because that’s what you are suppose to do.
You’re my mother, my father, you’re my sister and my friend
and you are suppose to be my lover
but when I responded” I love you”
you said ” that’s not what I said”
What was the misunderstanding of what you said
was it the fact that I needed it , wanted it
or was it the fact that you showed it but really didn’t mean it.
Why did I misunderstand what you said when I clearly heard you say I love you
or did you say I hate you
It feels like a familiar translation of what I wished you would say.
I said I love you..
but you replied” that’s not what I said”
Question: How many times have you misunderstood the intentions of the word love in relationships?
Date: July 30, 2013
Time: 5:36 pm
Dear God,
Thank you so much for the revelation 3 days ago. Man, it was a hard blow. I know I got caught up. I wanted to be loved so much that I forgot you are the only one that continues to love me unconditionally. Knowing all that God it still hurt. I stood in the closet that night and prayed for you to protect my heart. Although I forgot that the process would include pain. I feel a shame, hurt, guilt, angry and grateful all at the same time.
I feel shame because I opened my heart and I closed my eyes to the signs. I feel hurt because he could have told me but chose not to I have guilt because I should have known better than to hand my heart over to a stranger
I feel angry because of the in your face disrespect to take no responsibility to just say ” I’m sorry.” Last but not least I am grateful that you God knew what I needed before I asked for it. I know I need to love people anyway because we all make mistakes so I will do that. I will forgive Markus Bolden. PERIOD. But I will never forget how it felt to be hurt by his actions and my neglect. I wish him and his wife the best for years to come. He was in my life for a season and I will say it was a season full of laugh, hugs, kisses and profound intimacy. I felted loved by him truly. I pray to you God that I will find love again at the right time with the right soul attached.
In Jesus Name, I pray
AMEN
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