Stressed + in Between

Today I struggled with saying no to the flaming hot Cheetos that live in the vending machine at my job. Why? Because for some reason every week since I’ve began my health and wellness journey again no matter how much water I drink or how many meals I prep those chips seem to call my name every single time.

The first few weeks I thought it was happening because I was working on becoming more self-controlled in my decisions so I gave myself permission to slip up once. Then once became twice and now every week no matter how good I’m doing with sticking to my plan my mind tends to wonder what those flaming hot Cheetos would taste like if I were to substitute them for one of my meals. I’ve even begun to accept the calorie count on the back of the bag as me just needing to exercise a little more. Although I have been able to continue to lose weight, I struggled with the guilt that I could’ve done more if I would’ve followed the plan.

So when it happened again today, I decided to talk to my trainer and ask him “Why am I struggling with wanted to eat something other than what’s on my food plan?” and his respond was “because you are stressing about reaching your goals so much that your mind is telling you to eat something else to deal with the stress.” Aha!! This ring of some truth and makes a lot of sense to me as to the reason why this is continuing to come up for me. For me when I understand why things happen to me I find comfort in my decision going forward.

So will I have more struggles? Of course, but today I choose to work on stressing less on the scale’s number and going back to enjoying the journey towards the finish line.

What are you struggling to finish in the next hour, day or year?

9 years of Survivorship



I am a survivor again today

Like every day since the second month

and fourth day nine years ago

It started with a nudge from God

followed by a obedient doctor

who felt my heart and pain

to my acceptance of the information given

with an ingenuine attempt to follow through

but God kept nudging me

reminding me that I promised to move next time

HE showed up

744 hours  of second guessing

until today

I’m glad I accepted God’s healing

So today I could have the opportunity to celebrate

a huge milestone in my survivor life

I’ve cried, I’ve been depressed, I opened my heart to live again.

Today  I thank you God for my counselor Mrs. Ann Mcleod

who has lead me closer to you for the last 9 years.


With Hugs and Love,



When is your survivorversary?  Let’s celebrate!!!!!

Salute to the Savior Sunday


Heavenly Father,

Thank you for making this day possible for me to see.

A day of hope and rest in knowing all that I want and desire will soon come to pass.

I will remain grateful in this journey because I can finally see what is next for me.

Your belief in my ability to walk ahead in places I haven’t seen yet has strengthened my faith to know only YOU have the power to decided whether a door opens or closes.

I finally believe in ME.

Thank you Lord.

In Your Name,

I Pray



Salute to the Savior Sunday

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for this day.

Thank you choosing me to live in this day.

I am grateful for the blessings you will bring me, Lord.

I surrender to your Will for my life right now.

Tell me what I need to know.

I am listening with a receiving heart.

Cover me as I travel to and from my destination today, Lord.

Direct my path and protect my soul.

In your Name,

I pray


Affirm+Worry Less

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Hey Survivors,

Let the worries of the day force you to win today. Temporary concerns will shift your focus in order for you to be present in this teachable moment. Take away the good, leave the bad and keep moving forward.

What did you learn from your last worry?

With Hugs and Love,


The Search of Self outside {Survivor’s Affirmation}

Repeat after me….

I am searching for my greatness inside of me.
When I tap into it I will accept and receive all the blessings that follow.
Thank you Lord for reminding me that I am enough.

What affirmation is guiding you through today?

{The Survivor Life} A Special Message just for YOU

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Today marks the day I commit to writing and sharing with you the life lessons I live through daily as a S.A.S (Sexual Abuse Survivor). The journey is not meant to be easy and it hasn’t been but everyday is worth living.

I want the same for YOU as well.  I pray the same for YOU.

I know the issue YOU have with believing you are worthy enough for the guy or girl of your dreams.

I know the issue YOU have with feeling lonely in a house full of people who say they care and love you.

I know the issue YOU have as you suffer from depression because you feel like know one understands the internal fight between your mind and the devil daily.

I know the issue YOU have with living for validation so you over compensating to make someone else happy.  Hoping maybe they will return the favor.

I know the issue YOU have with boundaries. Say YES when your heart is telling you to say NO.

I know the issue YOU have with accepting love from others since you really are not sure if you love yourself.

I know the issue YOU have with self-control when it comes to food and sex.

I know the issue YOU have with self-sabotage when it comes to experiencing a good healthy relationship since you believe they will probably leave anyway.

I know the issue YOU have with creating your own happiness without attaching it to the next person, place or thing.

I know the issue YOU have with keeping your personal space safe.

I know the issue YOU have with forgiveness since you haven’t even forgiven yourself.

Believe me….I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW

What I also know is you are stronger then your current situation right now.

You are going to continue to get stronger every single day

I will walk alongside of you if you let me.

Today is the first day of the rest of OUR life.


With Hugs and Love,



Journey thought:  Will you accept your next step? What do you need to do right now to prepare?

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