Heavenly Father,
I am seeking your guidance today to become a stronger me in this moment.
I have been lost for a long time and today is another day of the fight.
Cover me with your love so I may feel the strength I need to make it through today.
I love you Lord
I thank you Lord
In your name I pray,
AMEN
Journey Day Three: I restarted this blog for many reasons. First, I needed somewhere for my writing legacy to live. Second, I love being the voice of a sexual abuse survivor because sometimes we forget we now have the freedom to speak our truth about our daily struggles. Last by not least, I created this because of my nephew, Monta.
For years, my sister and I would drop him off at the babysitter, his great aunt. We had no idea that she was touching in him inappropriately until he was old enough to speak. We didn’t find out until he was five. My heart broke into a million pieces. I felt so bad that I was the one who kept dropping him off to her. I felt so, so bad.
From that day forward, as I’ve watched him experience the same struggles I’ve experienced growing up as a victim of child molestation myself I wanted to help him now. RIGHT NOW!!! So I’ve secretly promised myself and God if I don’t have a strong enough why for myself to keep pushing this forward, I will ALWAYS do it for him.
I love you Monta!!!
With Hugs and Love,
Auntie Kelly
Survivor’s Journaling Assignment: Why do you breathe every day? What is keeps you pushing forward?
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Journey Day Two: This past Saturday I attended my Annual Vision Board party at my friend’s house. This is serious business for the ladies and I because we get to be creative. A house full of creatives is nothing but a good time in the making. This party is like no other.
We start off with Ms. Monica, my friend’s mom explaining and preparing our mind for the process of building our visual manifestation board. She takes the time to research worksheets and articles that will prepare our mind and give it permission in this moment to dream. She helps us leave our problems and stresses at the door and only worry about us for the next couple of hours. We are completely present and engaged to begin our project.
I begin the process of searching through magazines, agreeing with my eyes, and cutting out the necessary images and sayings to piece thought my vision together. This is extremely therapeutic and freeing for me.
Our great talks went together well with the delicious food served. Two types of chili, pumpkin muffins and strawberry shortcake for dessert!! Yes!! Yes!! I love doing things like this for myself with people I love and care about.
At the end of the night, we speak out loud our vision to one another so we can all come to an agreement to push and help each other along the way. Everyone needs support especially when you are on God’s path and no longer your own.
With Hugs and Love,
Lakell
Survivor’s Journaling Assignment: Get out your journal right now and answer this question. What is keeping you from clearly seeing your vision?
Heavenly Father,
Thank you for waking me up this morning. Yesterday could’ve been my last day but you gave me another day. Thank you Lord
Thank you for a sound mind and a healthy soul to do your Will today Lord. Although I feel weak at times I know you will never leave me to fall and go at this life alone. I love you Lord. Sometimes more than I love myself. I will continue to work on this area of my life so that I may become whole.
I am grateful to be alive so that I may continue to live.
In your name I pray,
AMEN
What are you grateful for today?
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Journey Day One:
Today marks the day I commit to writing and sharing with you the life lessons I live through daily as a S.A.S (Sexual Abuse Survivor). The journey is not meant to be easy and it hasn’t been but everyday is worth living.
I want the same for YOU as well. I pray the same for YOU.
I know the issue YOU have with believing you are worthy enough for the guy or girl of your dreams.
I know the issue YOU have with feeling lonely in a house full of people who say they care and love you.
I know the issue YOU have as you suffer from depression because you feel like know one understands the internal fight between your mind and the devil daily.
I know the issue YOU have with living for validation so you over compensating to make someone else happy. Hoping maybe they will return the favor.
I know the issue YOU have with boundaries. Say YES when your heart is telling you to say NO.
I know the issue YOU have with accepting love from others since you really are not sure if you love yourself.
I know the issue YOU have with self-control when it comes to food and sex.
I know the issue YOU have with self-sabotage when it comes to experiencing a good healthy relationship since you believe they will probably leave anyway.
I know the issue YOU have with creating your own happiness without attaching it to the next person, place or thing.
I know the issue YOU have with keeping your personal space safe.
I know the issue YOU have with forgiveness since you haven’t even forgiven yourself.
Believe me….I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW
What I also know is you are stronger then your current situation right now.
You are going to continue to get stronger every single day
I will walk alongside of you if you let me.
Today is the first day of the rest of OUR life.
Lakell
Journey thought: Will you accept your next step? What do you need to do right now to prepare?
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Living as Lakell 